Sunday, August 01, 2004
yo... this is the second time i'm blogging here because my other blog is in a terrible mess and i really need to write out how i feel so yah haha... Just came back from sentosa this afternoon. Feeling kinda shag right now haha... but anyway let's just start from yesterday's events...
YESTERDAY...
went over to ben's hse in bukit gombak. He's new hse is nice, but kinda small. As soon as i got there we played mahjong. haha as usual right... then we played till 7 in the evening b4 we had dinner. Thru out the mahjong game, my mood was very good. when ever Yu ke or Jason or Tacy said sumthing abt me, i'll just feel super low. I dunno y myself, but i think its probably because of the recent events happening in the week. After that, we took a cab from bukit gombak to sentosa. When we finally arrived, most of Cheryl( birthday girl )'s friends had left, and we celebrated for her alone. Felt kinda of bad as Cheryl had to accomodate us for her birthday. Later, we went crazy and started smashing each other's face with the leftover cake. Haha.. it was kinda fun, but the cake was very oily... Then later, the guys wanted me to go back to bukit gombak with them to play mahjong, but i refused, and we nearly had a quarrel. The reasons i had were simple: I promised Xue Yun i'll stay to keep Cheryl company, i don't want to play mahjong anymore for the rest of the week, and i just wanted to relax and forget abt all my troubles tat i have . In the end, the guys left without me. During the night, we were telling ach other ghost stories ( ok, there are 4 ppl in the tent: Me, cheryl, Xue Yun, and her bf Andy, My sec sch class mate ), and telling jokes, but when we ran out of things to do, we started singing sad songs. I nearly cried cause i just felt very sad. i kept thinking about whether i should continue going after Tabs, but the more thoughts i had, the worse i felt. I know i shouldn't even have the right to say i'm very sad, beacuse after all, there hasn't and had nvr been anything between me and Tabs. But i don't know why i feel that way too.. but in the end, i fell asleep...(cont next entry)
invisible Man- 98 Degrees
You can hardly wait to tell all your friends,
how his kisses taste sweet like wine..
and how he always makes your heart skip a beat,
everytime he walks by...
And if you're feeling down, he'll pick you up,
he'll hold you close when you're making love..
He's everything you've been dreaming of.. oh baby....
I wish you'll look that way,
Your beautiful eyes will look deep into mine..
telling me more then any words could say..
But you don't even know i'm alive....
Baby, to you, all i am...
is the Invisible Man....
Just someone insignificant was all alone at 7:56:00 PM
